Leaving the Tempestuous Kingdom

I didnt decide to leave this early
but they keep on pushing me
pushing me to the edge of not caring
edge of ending

I hate people who assumes
especially when they dont know me at all
where is your ground of thinking or even judgement
still i cannot do anything about it
thats who you are..who they are...

I know i dont have yet a stonger back fall
but what the fuck!!im not that strong...
strong enough to keep myself from being sane
when all of them are just one big twats

as coffee girl told me...
which is better: peace of mind or material things..
nut in this case...
Peace of mind is really much better...
over having thins Kingdom keep me with insanity...

oh well... im just so sad
that it happens this fast ..
im not sad because they choose someone over me
im sad because they judged me with nothing...

I want you-Im afraid I wont know where to stop

this is the song or the video that triggers me back to that dark alley again,, shit fuck!!! i hate it!! though for a fact i love this song... loving the hate!!! grrr!!
ok... this song really is talking about my past!!



I want you

Oh my baby baby I love you more than I can tell
I dont think I can live without you
And I know that I never will
Oh my baby baby I want you so it scares me to death
I cant say anymore than I love you
Everything else is a waste of breath
I want you
Youve had your fun you dont get well no more
I want you
Your fingernails go dragging down the wall
Be careful darling you might fall
I want you
I woke up and one of us was crying
I want you
You said young man I do believe youre dying
I want you
If you need a second opinion as you seem to do these days
You can look in my eyes and you can count the ways
I want you
Did you mean to tell me but seem to forget
I want you
Since when were you so generous and inarticulate
I want you
Its the stupid details that my heart is breaking for
Its the way your shoulders shake and what theyre shaking for
Its knowing that he knows you now after only guessing
I want you
Its the thought of him undressing you or you undressing
I want you
He tossed some tatty compliment your way
I want you
And you were fool enough to love it when he said
I want you
I want you
The truth cant hurt you its just like the dark
It scares you witless
But in time you see things clear and stark
I want you
Go on and hurt me then well let it drop
I want you
Im afraid I wont know where to stop
I want you
Im not ashamed to say I cried for you
I want you
I want to know the things you did that we do too
I want you
I want to hear he pleases you more than I do
I want you
I might as well be useless for all it means to you
I want you
Did you call his name out as he held you down
I want you
Oh no my darling not with that clown
I want you
Youve had your fun you dont get well no more
I want you
No-one who wants you could want you more
I want you
Every night when I go off to bed and when I wake up
I want you
I want you
Im going to say it once again til I instill it
I know Im going to feel this way until you kill it
I want you
I want you

stupid#1

restrictions..
dont know what to do
is that what i feel
i dont actually know what i feel
still
lingering through my bones
flowing through my feeling
the PAST

hunting me...
like darkens in an abysmal hole
non stop dropping..
flowing..

when shall it stop
a better gum that wont waste
till it evaporates

been stupid lately
going back
going tback to that street
peaking...
reminscing..
dreadfully crying..

denial.. acceptance.. forgiving...
not forgetting...
better off or better pising off
both?

no..
im just drunk...
but true enough..
i was there...
i know..
i am still waiting..

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McQness

so, na tag ako ni sega... pero i think na tag na din ako ni lee about this.. pero now lang ako nagka "umph" gumawa..hehehhe

1. Each blogger starts with 10 random facts/habits about themselves.
2. Bloggers who are tagged need to blog about their own 10 random facts/habits.
3. At the end of your blog, tag 10 people and list their names.
4. Don't forget to leave them a comment and tell them that they've been taggged and to read your blog.

McQness

1. when i eat nuts like Nagaraya... I only eat the coated part... then throw the nuts... or give it to someone..hehehe

2. i love collecting jackets.. =)

3. when travelling.. i always sleep... by car, plane or even banka..hehehe

4. when eating.. i dont usually talk.. and i dont like other people touching or putting unwanted things on my plate or without my permission...hehehe

5. i always wash/alchohol/sanitize my hands after touching money...

6. i love indie, crazy, morbid, gruesom films...

7. when i get very angry.. i cry... but after that.... your dead!

8. i hate when people makes you "mukhang tanga" and people who stabs you at the back!! i forgive but defenitely i dont forget!

9. when i scratch my nose or eyes!! grabe may sound!!! this i have to remove na talaga sa system ko..hehehe

10. when im drunk all of my birthmarks turns RED! hihihihi

other than the poeple i tagged... whoever read this.. your automtically tagged!! wahahah